feeling uprooted

we are home after dropping our son off at school in nyc. i have had the pleasure of watching him come into himself (as a young man) over the past six months. he is ready for this next phase. and i am excited for him. but, his leaving means steve and i are without kids in our home for the first time in 24 years. i liked the daily thrum of a household with kids. so i am feeling a little adrift right now. the house it too quiet. no one cares what’s for dinner, or what time it will be. it’s all going to take some time to get used to.  steve keeps telling me he’s excited to see what we can do creatively with our freed up time and attention. he’s right, it is thrilling in the principle. but it is going to take me a few weeks to adjust. right now, it all feels eerily quiet. like this photo.